self-care is tricking your self-loathing brain into a roundabout form of self-love by intensely loving a fictional character you really relate to
i am genuinely delighted (a) that so many people relate to this and (b) that nearly all the tags are along the lines of “fuck off”/“i hate this”/“don’t call me out like this” followed by “…anyway here are my personal relatable faves”
Talking about Keith and hobbies a little more, it definitely bothers me where it feels like in popular fanon his only two hobbies are knives and cryptids when in canon he’s shown zero interest in the latter (if anything, I think his personality would gel really badly with conspiracy theories) and the only knife he cares about is pretty obviously because of its obvious sentimental significance to him- he takes to swordsmanship but through the show and the comics the two things he’s wanted to have for himself were 1. a dragon and 2. one of the Olkari mecha walkers and he flat-out ignored what the knife merchant in s2e7 was selling in order to focus on identifying his own knife.
Hobbies Keith does seem to have:
Swimming! Remember he wanted to check out the pool as much as Lance did in in s2e5.
Seems to be pretty athletic all around considering his form taking on the Garrison employees in s1e1 and that he’s later the only one shown taking up independent training (though it’s heavily implied Lance is also doing so in secret)
Explicitly likes the outdoors (s2e4) and finds it peaceful, was basically camping in the desert given how bare-bones the shack is; shown to be very attentive to his environment since as soon as he clapped eyes on the fraunhofer line he immediately recognized its similarity to a rock ridge he’d seen before.
Research– clearly heavily looked into and studied the ‘weird energy’ to try and understand it- even triangulated its position.
This is the part I think wouldn’t gel at all with conspiracy theorists because from what I’ve seen, so much conspiracy stuff relies on bad science and leaping to conclusions and Keith very obviously… doesn’t do that? He doesn’t overlook things, he documents very carefully and thoroughly, and he has a literal supernatural sense of truth sometimes, the idea of holding onto something that’s blatantly false in the presence of solid contradictory evidence is just… not a Keith thing to do.
We see places in s1e1 where he’s ripped stuff off his board, telling us he discarded ideas. And the only time he even suggests what might be responsible for the energy is when they’re standing right in front of an obvious alien machine.
Quite possibly photography- after all he did take all those pictures of the cave markings himself implying he has a decent camera, and since he has physical pictures, he either printed them, or took them using an actual film camera and developed them himself, which takes talent, especially given his limited resources- if he put together a makeshift working darkroom.
OH I WANNA ADD!
Genuinely likes flying/piloting. Especially challenging stuff. Just look at the Hoverbike and how excited he was to chase Rolo through the asteroid field in s1.
Reading. It goes kind of hand-in-hand with the research part, but the amount of books he has in his shack suggests that he feels comfortable around them. Considering how technologically advanced Earth already is, he would have probably had an easier time finding books/articles relating to his research online – he seems to like having a physical copy of them though and doesn’t destroy them for the sake of research. He copies everything down by hand before attaching it his board (the “digitally written” stuff on the board isn’t ripped at the side, they are probably printed articles/copies).
A mild interest in technology. The mentioned mecha walker from the Olkari. Hoverbikes. He has kept the one he has on Earth fully functioning and he has a hoverbike poster up in his room when there are plenty of other posters (or maps) rolled up in the corner. The interest might just be there because of his interest in piloting stuff though.
(there is also an extra photo of a canyon or something on the hoverbike poster – chances are that he took it for his research, it turned out to be useless but he liked it too much to discard of it. or it’s a hobby pic!)
There’s also that stuff from storyboard artists that showed Keith drawing, so I think he likes drawing as well as photography.
Great additions! So yeah, conclusions: Keith is an artsy outdoorsy boy.
Considering the Olkarian Walker, the dragon he was interested by in the comics, the hoverbike and “SICO” poster, I wonder if his interest is specifically in vehicles? It’d go with, as @keiths-stupid-mullet said, his propensity to show off a little with his piloting.
While Keith is in full “as many times as it takes” mode, Shiro is wondering if there is a way to stop Keith from risking his life for him again and again.
When you delete things off of a mobile device (like a phone or digital camera), the file goes to your phone’s recycle bin (just like on a desktop computer or laptop), typically an invisible folder named .trashes or .trash. There, it continues to take up the same amount of memory storage as it did before you ‘deleted’ it. To empty your mobile device’s recycling bin, plug your phone into your desktop or laptop via USB as a memory device, right click on your desktop/laptop’s recycling bin/trash, and tell it to empty your recycling bin/empty trash. Your computer will empty all .trash/.trashes folders, including the one on your phone, actually deleting the files permanently this time, freeing up your phone/camera’s memory space. Reblog to save a life.
(I know this works on MAC with my Andriod, it’s not too far a stretch to do the same on Windows and/or with other phones as well. In fact, it should be easier to do on Windows since Windows Explorer is more conducive to finding hidden folders.)
FINDING THIS RANDOM POST ON MY DASHBOARD GAVE ME THE BEST ANSWER TO SHIT I’VE BEEN GOOGLING ABOUT FOR MONTHS!!!
Laziness: I’d rather sit here than pick up those clothes
Executive Dysfunction: I need to pick up those clothes I need to pick up those clothes why am I still watching this thing on Netflix while sitting down c’mon stand up I need to pick up those clothes I need to pick up those clothes I need to-
The Kind Of Actual Pathology-of-Motivation Associated With Major Depressive Disorder*: I know I need to pick up those clothes, and if I don’t pick up those clothes my quality of life will continue to decline, and theoretically the consequences of picking up those clothes are ones I don’t want, and if I don’t pick up those clothes they will get wrinkled and dirty again and I won’t have clean clothes to wear, but my life is an undifferentiated mass of grey and despite knowing all of these things I cannot actually make myself fucking care I will just stay here and stare at the clothes while Netflix plays until it stops. And tell myself how fucking lazy, stupid and useless I am because if I weren’t I would realize that I need to pick up those clothes and make myself do it. This is totally fine.
[yes, this is actually separate from executive dysfunction; it’s also a symptom of illness, a potentially really serious one, and tends to spring from complications due to anhedonia, or lack of the ability to experience positive stimuli] [it is also often COMORBID – that is, happening at the same time – with executive dysfunction]
Can you expand on how “i just can’t care” is different from “lazy”? Is it the internal ability to care, that it’s just lacking, whereas with laziness you have the capacity to do the thing, you just choose not to. I’m having trouble with cementing the actual explanation. Laziness is a values thing and the rest is a base-functionality thing?
In terms of what I meant, the crux there is cannot make myself.
Say I’m being lazy with my afternoon, and someone I know comes in and says, “You need to stop being lazy and do the thing, or Bad Consequence will happen.” And the consequence is genuinely bad.
For instance, say I’m Not Cleaning the Kitchen and someone comes to me and says, “You need to clean the kitchen or you’re going to get ants”. And they’re even right.
If I’m being lazy, and I agree that now that I think about it, ants aren’t good, I don’t want ants, I kick my own ass, get up and clean the kitchen. This is based on the ability of my brain to literally experience a Reward, a Positive State, from having a cleaner kitchen and not having ants.
If I’m having catastrophic anhedonic motivation failure? That doesn’t work. It’s not that I want to stay on the couch more than I don’t want to have ants. It’s that I can’t make myself care about EITHER state because it’s all fucking horrible. Nothing gets better. I might as well fucking have ants. I deserve ants. Look at me I can’t even fucking keep my kitchen clean I don’t even WANT my kitchen clean obviously since I’m still lying here so fuck it, I’ll just lie here and have ants. Oh look now I have ants. Isn’t that fantastic proof of how fucking awful I am.
Of course the entire thing is usually not that articulated in the brain, you know? This whole thing is an example. Usually it’s more like:
Laziness: … meh put away clothes later. Executive Dysfunction: *want to put away clothes* *constantly stall on the initial cognitive step of How To Put Away Clothes* *get more and more distressed/stressed about not putting away clothes* *keep stalling* *cry* Anhedonic Lack of Motivation: *lie there. stare at clothes. know clothes should probably go away. can even think of whole set of steps to put away clothes.* *cannot fucking feel anything about putting away clothes* *stalls out forever in pit of ‘why do i even fucking bother i should lie here and rot’* *uses fact that clothes have not been put away as evidence*
But the original form is pithier and has better rhythm.
So, it looks the same to a third party, but it feels/behaves differently on the inside
Well yes. They ALL look the same to a third party, at least casually – that’s the point.
If you know the person it’s pretty easy to see the difference (the general aura of misery and disinterest in anything else in the universe is a big hint).
This is something I wish was more widely understood. Executive dysfunction has become known about in my irl circles and while there’s definitely one or two for which this a problem most of the rest seem to use it as an explanation for the symptoms of unmanaged depression. As a society we are really bad at recognising the flat, empty, grey gaping maw that eats time and quietly lets us ruin our lives through neglectful apathy. Because that’s laziness, right? So I can understand wanting an explanation that doesn’t relegate blame. The problem is the most easily accessible, without further stigma (eg. depression as a moral failing) is an incorrect one, and genuinely unhelpful. Not the same strategies to address, plus depression can use more brain broken to feed to ifs narrative of I Hate You.
I mean: executive dysfunction is also a symptom of depression, and like I noted they’re often very much comorbid. I have had whole periods where what made my life fall apart was the total demise of my executive function.
But yes, executive dysfunction and anhedonic lack of motivation are actually different things, and they also require different things to fix.
And gods yeah, I think that the way that anhedonia – the actual impairment or destruction of your ability to experience positive emotions and stimulus – is something that needs way, way more attention, w/r/t how it works and how it affects your ability to function.
i wonder if theres such a thing as a disconnect between the action and the reward–as in you do feel a reward from doing something, it’s just that while you’re not doing it you sort of can’t believe in or don’t care about the reward? and so it doesn’t seem worth doing, but then if you do somehow get forced or just do it in a random fit of motivation the reward does happen, it’s not gone.
Fuck yeah! The brain reward system is a major problem in most disorders of motivation and executive function. Sciency links:
just moving along like everyone else 