jumpingjacktrash:

idk, maybe the worst part is when they do, you don’t know how to answer, because you’ve trained yourself to be okay no matter what. it’s like seeing the door to freedom open for one moment, but while you’re remembering how to walk, it closes again, and you’re stuck berating yourself for not making a break for it while you had the chance.

i think the worst part might be that after a while you forget what you’re being strong for and how bad it is, so you think you’re doing okay but really you’ve just forgotten or gotten used to how bad it is, and now you don’t even know your own feelings and experiences