personal classpect stuff

so i think im a mage/seer of heart

i think more mage than seer, but we already have a canon mage of heart in meulin leijon though she barely gets any screentime

but here’s how it is:

none of the aspects really fit me. like i bet im a mage/seer but i could see myself as a hero of time, doom, mind, heart, light, or void and thats…too many aspects. if it was one or two i could see being uncertain but those are half of all aspects we know of. that just…doesnt work.

but as very cool homestuck theorists deliverusfromsburb and zenosanalytic have said, heart is a class that is both very narrow and very broad, being linked to a person’s self, which can be inherently contradictory – and since the self is individual what “heart” is can be different for each person, hence the both narrow and broadness of it.

and i feel like heart can encompass me and all that i am or could be.

heart is about what is, and i am very into what things are. what they actually are. The Truth (and What Is) are concepts that i strive to understand and learn.

im into history and psychology, which are all about the Self and What Is (or Has Been in the case of history). the way we talk about the past influences the present and the future. and unfortunately, there is no objective measure of rightness someone is about history, theres all these subjective ideas about how things go, bc people are different and have different views…

im rambling. and that junk about people all being different seems very Heart-y.

anyway, the fact that im so concerned about imagining for myself the right classpect rather than the one i want most seems Heart-y to me.

two problems: i feel like that since theres a canon mage of heart i dont want that class even though i think mage fits me better than seer, and i dont like the color of Heart at all. too pink, and i dont like pink. i know, i know, but thats how i feel.

anyway, with everything ive said it feels weird not to go with what feels right and seems right intellectually over something so petty as canonness and color.

so anyway, if i had to give myself a classpect, it would probably be mage of heart.