it was a close thing

iamneversleepingagain:

note: this honestly all started because i was stuck in a TERRIBLE meeting and i
started thinking about bitty being sad about jack and i wrote this meta post and then i had to write 5k words to accompany it. i’m fine.

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           Bitty had
never meant for it to go this far. It had been a crush and he’d had plenty
before. He’d had plenty of experience getting over them, too. The thing was…he’d
never figured on Jack liking him back.
He had no experience whatsoever with this strange brand of casual flirtation,
invisible to everyone except for himself.

           Bitty
blamed Kent Parson, perhaps a little pettily. The thing was – it hadn’t been a
problem before Kent Parson crashed Epikegster, because Bitty had been cocooned
in the safety of the knowledge that his crush was straight as an arrow and
therefore, would never be interested. The fact that Jack had definitely been
making out with Kent Parson in his room before angrily kicking him out not because of the kissing but because Kent
was being an asshole was a problem for Bitty.

           It was a
problem because it sparked a traitorous little flame of hope in Bitty every
time he looked at Jack. It was a problem because it caused Bitty to rewind
every moment they’d ever shared and sort through them for signs. It was a
problem because it meant Bitty’s crush didn’t have to be unrequited. Bitty was going to burn alive with the
knowledge.

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