i wanna give a shout out to all lgbt people who thought they were another identity before realizing they were something else. lesbians realizing they’re trans men, bi/pan people realizing they’re a lesbian/gay, binary trans people realizing they’re genderfluid, etc. even if you don’t know if your current identity is the final stop, even if you think it’s a “phase”, or you don’t know what label fits you best, you’re on a journey to self discovery, every step matters, it shapes you into the person you are or aspire to be, and you’re not fake or a bad person for figuring things out.
YO PEOPLE scope this weirdness, i’m 36 and i still don’t know for sure what i’m gonna be by 40, so i’m currently stuck between butch dyke, ftx and full on straight ass dudebro. am i hesitating to claim full masc because of anxiety disorder? social conditioning that says i will never pass and therefore shouldn’t put myself at risk? genderqueer for real? ftm with hangups? for real, I DON’T KNOW!
but luka you’re so adamant you say
yes because i have made peace with not knowing for sure (most of the time, fuck u v much dysphoria)
the thing is, becoming ok with not knowing is a vital process that will make it a lot less important to define yourself and risk getting it wrong. less concern over the “what if” smorgasbord means you won’t nitpick your own experience so much and second guess every feeling you have. accept ambiguity and don’t obsess about what will come out of your egg when you’re done. get toasty under the feathered butt of the universe for now and just tell yourself that you’re here, you’re likely to be some variety of queer, and the world is just gonna have to get used to it.
then start pecking like a motherfucker
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just moving along like everyone else 